tarotgal

Hey. Sorry I've not been on a lot lately. There have been some FANTASTIC fics posted to the lists- most of which I've read but haven't had time to write feedback for. I really appreciate them all, though! :-)

I've been trying to get work done. I feel like I'm in a major time crunch lately, with everything. I fucking hate editing real documents. Usually I write them the night before, skim them briefly for misspellings, turn them in, and then get A's. So completely reworking a 400 page document from almost scratch is pure terror and horror and pain for me. ANd I'm trying to get it done by tomorrow. LOL

Plus my taxes... gah... need to get home and do those with parents. They always look it over and redo them to make sure I didn't make mistakes with the boxes and numbers and things. I ordered checks a couple weeks ago and still haven't got them- I've got ONE check left and 6 bills to pay still this month. Which isn't all too bad because I've got no money with which to pay it. LOL And I have Boyfriend's birthday next week I must do something for. GAH! *does Pooh impression and looks pensive while tapping side of head* Think! Think! Think!

Going to try to go away this weekend, but want Thesis done by then. Gah!!

Plus there's this Harry/Neville story due on the 15th and I'm not close to being done with it. GAH!!!!

Luckily, sister and father aren't visiting tomorrow, so I don't have to spend time cleaning this place and washing the sheets and all for them. I've been sleeping on the living room couch for the last month and a half to two months, and I never turn off my TV any more. So that would have killed my routine a lot. LOL

Gah... damn thesis. I'm so used to being perfect. I HATE major revisions. Minor revisions are great. Even semi-minor ones. But this is massive. And painful. GROWL!

Okay, I'm done bitching for tonight. I went to Walmart on the way to drop off my cable check (using the second-to-last check in my account) because the bill as 2 months overdue and they called me this morning about shutting off my service 2 weeks from now. So I had to pay that at least and wanted to do it ASAP. But I bought French bread and a thing of fruit at Walmart for a couple bucks. That makes me happy. I like eating. I didn't really eat today. Kept forgetting.

On a more positive note, I listened to a fantastic piece on Folk Radio today about Passover. With it and The O.C. last week, I almost feel envious that I don't have any huge feast rituals like the Seder. I want a tradition specifically to inspire questions from future young generations. It's such a romantic concept.
One part of the piece talked about one movement to link followers of Judaism with the monks of Tibet in understanding and celebration because of the common past of Exodus from their land. It was absolutely fascinating to me. I'd never considered the similarities between the two histories. It was especially interesting to hear that there was hatred for the Chinese for their actions, but that the Jews said things like they were not angry and did not hate the Egyptians. There are SO many levels of understanding and faith that comes from all of this... over the hundreds of years or just a couple years in the case of Tibet. I find the fact that they're able to share their feelings about these with each other and learn from each other to make the situation better incredible. I was completely floored. Completely. I'm not describing it well, but the point is, it's a connection I'd never made and it's amazing to me that these two different religious groups are learning from each other and their similarities rather than accenting the differences and hating each other which is what I see from religious groups more often. *sigh* The more I think about it, the more I would just love to go study in Tibet. I need insight. But who doesn't? :-)

Well, not exactly morning, but I woke up at 1 so the last few hours are morning to me.

Found that in my attempts at ordering Boyfriend's bday present, my credit card limit was reached, so they refused it. So I must order again. GAH
In my attempts at paying off some of my credit card bill, I found $300 missing from my bank account (which meant I was back down to $54 again. Not good. So I thought maybe it was the $300 check I deposited that hadn't cleared. No such luck. I really do only have $54 in the account. But it took me 5 separate calls to the bank and one visit in person to figure all this out. Plus it seems that they didn't send the checks to my home... or my parents' home... or even my bank branch. Apparently the checks I ordered went to a whole other branch of the bank that I never, ever visit... which is why I went in person after the 5 phone calls. So now I FANLLY have checks that I can write to pay my bills! Of course I don't have any money to actually write them out to... and credit card is maxed out. Bloody HELL it's not been a fun day! But at least the $200 check I wrote out last night is covered so it won't bounce- if my credit card hadn't been refused I wouldn't have gone through all this and it would probably have bounced and I would have lost even more money. Apart from that, I'm just screwed. *sings to the tune of a Bawdy Baladeer's song* Screwed screwed lovely lovely screwed! *sigh* The only thing that's keeping my spirits up right now is a small tax refund and a $20 gift card at Target I'm saving until the 27th when Big Fish comes out on DVD... and the $20 Best Buy card I'm saving for when Timeline comes out on DVD. I need more Ewan. Ewan makes me happy. Thewlis, eh, less happy. But that movie is historical fiction and time travel and it's Crichton and lots of men with LOVELY accents so I love it much much. ( one sentence of Thewlis-related Timeline spoiler ) *sigh* He's SOOOOO good at being an unlikable character... I SO worry about him being my sweet Remus J. Lupin!!!

NOT a fun morning. Gods I hate money. LOL And in a month or two I get to start paying back my HUGE student loan! With some nonexistant money from my nonexistant job. I repeat: GAH!!! I want to denounce money and go live in a farming commune somewhere in the middle of nowhere.